Chapter 22 : dear fate

This is not a chapter.
This is goodbye.

To a past that I've been sorely living on. You were every word.. everything.. I write. And I know at the very core of my being, I can proudly say this, I could love you forever at this distance. Yes, to all those who prophesied or said it all so many times, the greatest love is one that lets go so the other would be happy, even if it means that significant is in the arms of another or even if they forgot. This is indeed the greatest love. To learn that my very being is capable of something like this shows a great deal of my ability.

They say time heals everything but I'm still waiting.

She said you are happier now. I imagine you walking down that path with her hand in yours, your beautiful smile gleaming... full of hope and love. To know that you shed that slight shimmer of guilt in your eyes.. it is enough.

I wrote you a song today; I pray it is my last song for you. Though you will never hear it.

I have never known and I have never owned you.

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Beautiful Red

He wanted to leave this world
Did you know
He sat outside his window
It scared me so
Having to lose another friend
Someone I've yet to confess
I saw his soul
It was beautiful to me

Beautiful Red
You flutter
Going in circles
In your colour

Oh Beautiful Red
You got me blinded
Frozen in your wander

She wanted to fall asleep
It was a blunder
That she went over
It scared her so
Having no answers till today
Of the colour
That was beautiful

In your colour
Going in circles
You flutter
Beautiful Red

Chapter 21: Bypass

Conscious, you are fine.
It is the only affair I regard
I must had been a lurking advocate of your shadow all these years
If only you knew how much I have loved that shade of black
So then tell me, did I have wings in your eyes?
Yes, too soon it will be your moment to rise above the waiting world you so belonged.
Soar and remember me.

Chapter 20 : Begin the Begin

Can I say something that would make you stay?
Just a little longer right here at this space, where you would come back to visit?

I am sorry.

I slipped... and I fell.
The free fall through that spiral was excruciating yet beautiful. Don’t you fear the light sometimes? I do. In between those dreams and reality, I didn’t want to wake. I felt safe in that limbo.

I see shadows… and the truth is… they are beautiful. Maybe one day, I’ll write the stories of these shadows so that you could see what I saw.

But...right now... please believe in me, and watch me stand up on my own two feet. I will get better. I will be better. I will do better. So wait. Wait for me.

I am running out of time and all that I have are these words. But these words shed so little light into my world.

Would anyone have stepped in?

Chapter 19: Incubus

What if I told you I have lost everything
And the person that stands infront of you
bares nothing within that is not crumbling
So you shake her to wake
but all it does is hasten the speed of nothingness

What has the chase done
to built a cause or to create a fight; and was is it even mine to begin
So you uncover your nakedness to arrive
at the core of your absolute cipher
to bring forth the frolic fronts of their regards
and evoke an incubus of reminiscence.