When a push comes to a shove you will be sacrificed. Naive little one how could you forget. The tendency to be swept away to think that it won't happen to you is foolish. You are just another pawn in their chess match. A useful piece sliding across checkered tiles to be placed in positions to make difficult decisions. So you killed yourself. 

All that is left is a handful of disappointments one after another. Constant rearrangement of their placements. 

Now. You are no longer the same.