Chapter 13: Stay Close, Don't Go.

I'm staring at the glass in front of me
Is it half empty
Or have I ruin all you've given me.
I know I've been selfish
I know I've been foolish
But look through that and you will see
I'll do better I know
I can do better.

If you leave me tonight
I'll wake up alone
Don't tell me I will make it on my own
Don't leave me tonight
This heart of stone will sink till it dies
If you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping
I listen to your breathing
Amazed how I somehow managed to
Sweep you off your feet
Your perfect little feet
I took for granted what you do.
But I'll do better I know
I can do better.

Don't you know my heart is open
It's putting on the fight
And I've got this feeling
That everything's alright
Don't you see
I'm not the only one for you
But you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight I'll wake up alone.

Stay.

Chapter 12 : Wake

No thoughts of you came through
As i slid down the stairs
Before unpacked.
In the shadows of mystery
I saw you but you didn't see me.

Swear my heart ran off the tracks
Pulled threads and ducked covers
merely missed the shots of glances

Watched your company by the door
Even at the distance i tore
Four doors to one embrace
Never will it be, your count but mine.

First flight you took from open doors
Must had been my ghosts you've seen
Thought the wheels you took
But the rail you went instead

Hence up i go only to start where i begin.

Chapter 11: Make your Move

What have we left?
Is there a chance, I’ll take.
To replay it all from the start
Though it’s not right I know
Still I can’t help smiling thinking.
How could two strangers connect?
In such perfection;
No flaws no questions asked; Silently I left in the dark.
Let me in; Where all wrongs are made right
And darkness doesn’t matter
When loneliness is made perfect; That's where I belong.
Only to you the papers flow; As more spaces fill.
Was it the chase or predicament?
I never could answer this question.
The only one I want to talk
So is it the first to be blocked.
Not that I need you; It’s just that you don’t need me too.

Your the challenge I seem to be losing.

Chapter 10 : Boulders

I feel locked away
with the weight of the world on my shoulders
crushing on my head are boulders
made of lies and dust from all of us.

What of the bonds we've made
that have started to fade
we can't control the time
but right now I'll take what I can get out of my life.

Medicate me again
so I fall away
Medicate me now
so I fall away

I feel torn between
two different sides of an opinion
don't know what state I've been in
don't believe in trust, for only one of us.

What of the progress made
that night we all forgave
it was a thought out crime
but you should take what you can get out of this life .

I never said that I didn't need you
put down your arms
and wrap them both right around me.

Chapter 9: Asylum

The old poet prophesied how time heals all wounds. Reckoned we foolishly disregard the hidden implications behind the saying, "While the scars remain".

The shifting shadow play made me think about the supposition of our perplexing circumstances. Loved but never loving, Loving but never loved. Our affiliation of love? Never destined to self.

Absurd I say, not only to that predicament. This is the life in an insane asylum of human relations. Knowing yet falling.

Chapter 8: Half Alive

It's four AM, I'm waking up to your perfume
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own
I don't know if I'm home
Or if I lost the way into your room
I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day
You and I will be free.

To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight.

Well excuse me while I get killed softly,
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay
At least 'til yesterday,
You know you got me off my highest guard,
Believe me when I say it's hard.
We'll get through this tonight
And I know one day you and I will be free

And you touch my hand ever so slightly
And the deadly look he cast upon me
I won't regret. I won't regret...

And I was trying to disappear,
But you got me wrapped around you
I can hardly breathe without you
I was trying to disappear
But I got lost in your eyes now,
You brought me down to size now.

Chapter 7: How About Enough

You said hi you wanted to talk about
The things that you should know
I never meant to run or hide
I just didnt think it was time for you to know
I'm stuck at the crossroads im waiting to choose
I'm hoping it wont lead back to you
The journey is over our time is up
Just give it up

So where do we go from here or end
We were never lovers, more than friends
Please take your shirts
Your smiles arent working, no more

Before you go i just want you to know
I burnt all the things you wrote
I never meant to let this pass
I just didnt think that this happiness will last
Come take a look at these tired eyes
Believe me i cannot even cry
If i could i would
So tell me if i should

You wouldnt mean a thing to me anymore

These hands were made to love, not break.

Chapter 6: Remembrance

Who wouldn't want to be her.
Innocent waiting hoping pure.
To be love by yet another similiar soul with those traits.
To be that character painted as an angel.

The greatest pain was what they did. Left me out on my own to wander the streets. Deserted in the cold. That, will be imprinted forever; Somehow, within my memory i know its been done many times before.

The start of my tragedy was brought about by that very same individual. Imagine the twist of it all.

Vividly my eyes remember, how coldly she brushed off my arm, refusing the support from them. Then in a swift movement; shoving the cash in my hand before taking off.

So fast it was, that i didn't get a chance to even glance at the fading headlights.

I stood there dejected not only by her but by the driver too. Everyone refusing me at that point in time. That precious hour when i finally open myself up to get stabbed in return, so cruelly at the spot where it hurt the most.

I want back my innocence, all of it. But its too late. It's tarnished by people... called friends.

All that's left of me is to move on the best way i know how. To shut up and nurse the gaping wound inside. Away from prying eyes, heartless hearts, uncaring souls.

Chapter 5: Congress

I like that little icon of your presence.
Amidst the others, standing out more significantly.
The birth of poetry, darkness alongside beauty, and chapters of untold accounts.

Tracing the shape of those hands, to recall that marble like feature, with contours so fine..

Bodies entwine in unison; tranquil; velvety sensuality.
Void spaces become tangible whilst relinquishing unprecedented depths.
Lips and tongue fuse, as the mind slips into mortal coma of libido.

Chapter 4: Plot Beautiful

I think i've pen my own tragedy once again.
Beautifully the mind tries to fend off the dark side.
When all this while i've been the murderer playing the victim.
The one that bridge the connection; the one that set the offer; the one that went over; the one that use and be used; the one that is here; its still not over.
Thinking that the walls could hold out but instead caving in from within.

I've awaken the beast i put to sleep, but i will put it down.

Just hold me and break me again.

Chapter 3: This is the way it should be

Pulling away the covers to recieve the light. It's morning.

As I gaze at every face; still lock on the subject to empty every ounce of emotions, retreating into the little space at the back of the mind.

I think i chose to be defeated.

The black and white screen play, just where i've left it.

Unlike the first encounter. Minds were intoxicated. I sat there, legs crossed watching the moving images infront of me. Taking in the changes of the years, yearning for a comfort.

Thank the coldness of the atmosphere and the only warmth under cover. The first contact. Light and gentle. Like a train it hit. The familiarity, distinctively recollecting within. With that embrace, genuine, the need of someone to hold me before i disappear into the nothingness of this world. Apologise you did. With the words agreed upon we took the leap.

Knowing the reality where we stand.


Never lovers, more than friends.

Chapter 2: Same Doors

I sipped my coffee, savouring the taste of bitterness. Weighing the options in my mind. Pondering should I..

That similiar cold drift greeted me.

I watched a similiar story unfold before my very eyes. It had a beautiful ending.

But i know its impossible. So far from reality. The thin line of confusion along side with unchartered emotions. One moment the mask was on, the very next, it peeled right off.

How many blocks i walked passed not one was mine. Doors shut, lights off, deafening desolation, defeated in the arms of disappointment.

All I could do is just lie down on this cold hard floor, the only reflecting companion, to ease all that's left, and all that would be gone in the next moments of daylight.

I knocked on the doors to my very own... disappointment.

Chapter 1: Revel

The reconciliation of two souls
Body in harmony
Taking breaths as one
Tenure of each anatomy in enchantment

With their last dance.