Leaning on this cold steel, she deserved it 

Who is this tearing on the train after talking about imposters 

She is and she knows it doesn’t leave after all this time it really hasn’t 

But it would had been a comfort to hear it from you on what you had to say 

Either she will laugh or roll her eyes it just isn’t the same if it’s not you 

Putting out fires as she held her breath to fight it while taking in the smokes 

Knowing the end of it would be a reward that made it worth going 

But she wasn’t prepared for company not now not this time 

All she wanted; was you. 

The steps the walk was longer 

Maybe stumbling is not walking 

It is just not the same 

Putting a foot in front of the other was heavier 

Unable to go faster without falling off the edge

So yesterday was an indemnity  

Not knowing you needed saving 

Honesty became a scarcity

How could she save when she needed saving 

 How did I come up in your mind when the music played or when the words hit your mouth 

Did you see me in the screens or it felt like a familiar scene 

When the wait lingered longer in our minds and it was special during the in between 

Did it felt the same where you are in the moment and only one that comes to mind who would get it at the level it hits

Would it be safe to share this or would you implode like back in Millenia how it all unravels differently where my response would be another chaos

But I hope it didn’t wreck the image of me if I left you with songs and that is how you remember me by I guess it wasn’t so bad after all. 

 I like how I can escape being me even if it is just for a while

The little unknown mix of vices and play 

The revealing yet holding back 

Looking back at night while moving forward in the day 

A contrast to everything and yet nothing at the same time