Coffee

The phone finally rang. But all you could do or what ever that is left of you to do was watch it ring itself out while the flashback took over. Because you have lost your words and speaking is alien. The disappoint was far too grievous and the gash too deep.

It has been one month three days. This call came too late.

What was, will never be again.

We are alike. Without family you thrived on with nothing, living with minimal material needs, like a gypsy traveling light and free.

You are fortunate that's what you are constantly reminding me.

It will be alright.

Tonight these written words have hit hard, shaking and trembling every pages of thoughts that were thought of. Each entry is like a time capsule which carefully threads the specific story to it.

Here I am in a different place on my own, starting from scratch all over again, like I have pressed a reset button.

Simple greetings you would have asked even if it is just a question intentionally left on this site. Technology have taken distance and conversations onto further unnoticeable impairment.

Forgetting made convenient.

But you hope even the trivial of hope that someone out there reminisce and finds you here writing... still.

I left this mountain and felt my bruised heart healed a little bit more.

The act of giving is the ultimate gift to your soul.

I feel ready to begin again...

Where have dreams went?

Spin they did in their glory days.

Those brilliant colours have faded along with time.

Where have my pictures gone?

This fury is potent. Everything is set ablaze.

I know that this will be the only decision that I will regret for the rest of my life.

I had to make that choice to give you away, not because i did not love you anymore but I loved you so much to want you to have a better life than me, so I let you go. You have suffered enough with me.

There is not one moment in a day that I will not think about you. Everyday I am constantly reminded of what I could not do, do not have and will never have.

I wish you well, I wish you love, forever in all the days of your life.

You are the best I will ever have.

I will never keep another.

Every time I see his picture...I die a little more each day.

Pray.

For all of this to end.

the only thing left which was taken away because you had to make that choice.