How will I get out of this labyrinth. I just did. Today is an epiphany. I like that word. Along with, "extremist". They said I could explore those options. I am wide awake without sleep. I am sober yet not quite. All that is resounding in my head is, what is next? So I will do anything to feel alive again. But. Nothing. I am and was and still surprised by nothing. Fascinated by nothing even. Annihilation. I just did. I knew.
All along.
I did.
Alright...
"Vulnerable" to end the day.
I get it now.
What it means to believe in love. It is to accept how vulnerable and unreliable it is. Just to live and believe in that fleeting moment, that love exist.
My first valentine.